I don’t know about you, but I get so caught up in what I need to do, that I forget about other important things. I get so caught up in telling myself, “Ineed to do this. It is the only way I can make my dreams come true.” But then I miss out on amazing things like, spending time with my family, resting, and fun. I can’t remember the las time I had fun!
I spend all my time worrying, stressing, and obsessing over my dreams that I have made that a priority above all else. And let me tell you, it doesn’t make me feel great. This weekend, I have had some downtime, more than usual, because I have some type of sinus infection/cold. As much as I wanted to do all my work, I couldn’t. I slept.
During that time, between sleeping and eating, it made me think. It took me being sick to have downtime. It took me being sick to watch a movie with my stepson.
And I never felt so terrible.
I don’t know when my dreams became more important than my reality, but things need to change. I don’t want to be sick to realize I need to be better here in reality, rather than living in my head.
I love my dreams. I love what I do. I love to write and to read. I love to create villains and heroes. I love creating sadness and happiness within a character.
But what about my own?
What about your own?
I don’t want to focus so much on that character that I becomethat character.
I spent the day today at an amusement park for the first time in who knows how long. But I was sick, why did I go? Well, I took medicine every four hours. I had to go because I couldn’t go last time my family went because I was sick, and I couldn’t let my stepson down again. I refused. Being so caught up in my writing/school, led me to not taking care of myself, and not spending time with the people that matter most to me.
Today was the first day I had fun in ages, even though I was horribly sick and slightly miserable because of it. But my family was happy, so I was happy, and I feel a little better. Maybe I needed some sunlight and fresh air. I don’t know!
I don’t know when I lost focus of that. Don’t run yourself to the ground. Don’t forget the people that love you.
I get so “caught up” in needing to make it, because I really want to provide for them. I want to be the best-selling author. I want to be the agent that writers submit to, but I need to start appreciating my support system more. My eight-year old stepson believes in me more than I believe in myself and I think that’s because I run myself ragged-to the point of sickness.
I’ll get there eventually, but I think I need to slow down. I need to appreciate other things in life. There is more to life than a computer, right?
Maybe you disagree with me, and that’s okay. I’m just asking for you to really look at your life. Are you doing everything you can for your reality? Your family?
Any job, whether it’s writing, publishing, teaching, engineering, or the millions of other things people do, don’t lose focus on the other things.
Writing is my dream, but my family is going to help get me there. It’s their dream to, you know? I’m not alone in this and I need to stop acting like I am.
How can your focus change?